well, here i am. about to leave this God-forsaken country. or, if God has not yet forsaken it, He should have a long time ago. we dont deserve Him here. off to new and better worlds where i can learn, explore, and just be. ive missed that feeling. just being. its been months now since i have had it... well, actually only a couple. but a total of 4 months since i got back from travel. i lost myself, found myself, then misplaced myself at home. home is not where my heart is. it wants to leave as soon as it lands here. i cant wait to fly off again. and here i am, being graced with the ability to go somewhere i long to be with people i long to be with. finally, things are looking up for me, and life seems to have direction. i am going somewhere. i am going to be. finally...