i just want to take a minute to give some background on what i did the other day. about a year ago, i realized i was tired. really, really tired. when i went to europe, i realized i was tired of being tired... and later that i didnt have to be tired if i didnt want to be. so, i gave up the bigger portion of my anger, hate, hurt, sadness, and pain up - for good. i am tired - both emotionally and physically - of carrying it around... just to save myself the trouble of facing my demons. i faced the biggest demon of my life, and i forgave him; i gave him up - along with everything that he did to me and the consequences of his actions.
dad, i went to forgive you. i dont think i was ever that ready. i hoped that you would be ready to hear what i had to say.
ironic how you werent there... again...