why did you write love on my heart and keep it just out of my reach? what song are you conducting for me now? i dont understand your timing....

i just want to take a minute to give some background on what i did the other day. about a year ago, i realized i was tired. really, really tired. when i went to europe, i realized i was tired of being tired... and later that i didnt have to be tired if i didnt want to be. so, i gave up the bigger portion of my anger, hate, hurt, sadness, and pain up - for good. i am tired - both emotionally and physically - of carrying it around... just to save myself the trouble of facing my demons. i faced the biggest demon of my life, and i forgave him; i gave him up - along with everything that he did to me and the consequences of his actions.
dad, i went to forgive you. i dont think i was ever that ready. i hoped that you would be ready to hear what i had to say.
ironic how you werent there... again...

thank you Maestro for gifting us with the ability to grow... there aren't words to describe how grateful i am for this...

i wonder if anyone actually reads these things... or if i am just rambling to myself. huh.
i think that the Maestro of the universe couldve bipassed sinus cavities. seriously. without them, there would be no allergies of the nasal kind.... what a glorious thought...
this a moment when i wonder if anyone actually reads these things... and for this one i feel sorry if you do...